Travelling with your soul in a suitcase
at 4 am in the morning.
the winter sun can be such a bitch in the closet
moving through the mist of the red garment.
The train has arrived,
there is blood in your kingdom of love;
women move in and out through doors
and Raphael stares like a beast from the clouds,
on the ceiling there are faces of angels
you lust for in sleep.
So you’re in your room,
with junk, weed and coffee
with lovely eyes and breaths of grass.
Polish the face of the sun
with lizard’s claws in a black shoe-case
and the mirror that blackened your soul
Travelling in a blue car across sunset,
you remember women with Nazi lips
who carried bombs inside their pink ribbons,
you fill the suitcase with mutilated women,
their breasts, thighs and lips jostling for air
and send them in trains through the blue sunset.
Naked American stripper on the highway,
her limbs chopped off, her voice glassed
like dried grapes in the sun;
pack her fingers with the moon
and spice up the ceiling of the Sistine Chapel,
feed her bones to the cannibals in the woods
and honour her as the last saint of modern art.
Preserve her breasts in vinegar and salt
as the last example of colonial peace.
I’m travelling with my soul in a suitcase
at 4 am in the morning
but you’re still unafraid to confess
that you love me,
can’t you see that every bitch with nuclear power
is trying to bomb us left and right?
Even my neighbour’s dog seems to be complaining;
Right, it has come down to sentences,
your letters have been flushed down the toilet.
So I’m in my room
growing my hair long,
tattooing every inch of my dark skin
and living on wine and Radiohead.
This country seems to have lost it
(just like me, must I say)
fighting for a bill in the parliament
like babies fight over broken toys.
I wasn’t complaining,
riding to the market on Sundays,
you’re with your mom and turned away,
really girls can be such bitches when their moms are nearby.
I could have puked, I tell you
back from Criticism class on Wednesdays
and imagining you in my arms naked all these years.
The room was dark
and I had put on the Ninth Symphony,
my lungs felt heavy and full of shit.
Outside there was a man selling ice-cream
like corporates ferrying a degree,
For some hours, I lost track of time.
the telephone is ringing,
it’s been quite a while;
and Annie has passed away,
she has swallowed pills, you tell me
no, no, I believe she was killed.
The Jews are praying for a sun
inside their blue chambers,
I fancy being Satan at times, it’s fun.
After breakfast, it’s 2010,
it’s always 2010 after breakfast
and 1945 after lunch and dinner.
What is Ophelia doing behind the leaves
playing with radioactive waste,
posing nude for Picasso in haste?
Ophelia, isn’t it?
Going round and round in sleep
with sex toys and…
So, the street-lamp spluttered,
So, the street-lamp gnawed,
Ah, you’re back again, scream.
“Yes”, the street-lamp cried,
“Yes”, the dark sky cried,
“Because you are back thinking in circles,
nth time and Zeroth time,
inseminated time and test-tube time,
dilated time and inflated time,
Alice’s dream and…”
Yes, Alice it is, Alice it will be,
going down the time hole
in a TV commercial,
I was watching a Tarantino film
and with closed eyes could picture
a beer can on the white sands amidst the swaying coconut trees,
Time can be an androgynous, self-copulating beast,
sterile, deprecating, having endless periods.
Somebody nailed the clock to the moon.
Bitch on the wall,
you’re provoking me again,
this is my last joint,I assure you
(as if you are ever watching me)
I’m so fucked up that I can’t help it.
And after this, I promise
I will try to write a nice, polite poem,
try to resurrect your letters
and dial your number.
Please, pick up the phone.